September 11th. 2001. I was in Japan.
Personally I was in a personal mental war life.
So I never forgot about own my war but a mental terrorism from others who wanted me out from a family but I had no information about that person who hated me come back to my children whenever in my late life.
That person and other one had tactics mentally emotionally moved into a war level and showed me how they hate me then attacked me front of my children.
That event almost crashed my heart as trying to rebuild trust between my children and me.
Fortunately I stood up because understood what is going on in my blood family but had a long distance from me for years years.
I could stay in Japan more than six months for a reason of 9/11 in America.
No body had no concern any trip, but felt for one thing when that time.
That is ; nothing safe for the air trip to America.
I could make some big changing in Japan in six months.
I came back to America and gave up Japan for my living at the year of 2001. I stopped to come closer to my children.
Just accepted a time passing for washing away old issues,mistakes and emotional hatefulness in them.
I took looking a neutral level, my emotional system in my micro universe choose to be not sad, mad,anger or hatefulness for them and what I got even paid attention from all my heart to my children and what kind of effort I had.
Dose not matter for them for six months are too short for them so.
But they may know my effort was not so bad and they may feel that was a good memory,they may know all are good to happen sometime in a late of their age.
How many times I was downed for my mistakes and other`s.
How many times I got up and stand up, then caught something in my hands to open up and see to know what was wrong with us.
How many times I started walk for my life travel such as a travel the station to next stop station,such as a economy class and not by the express.
I can not skip negative events,have to stop for a each time and at same time I have to look my self and my inner side/heart.
I can not be rich quickly because I did have to learn what is best for me and what really I want, need for my soul and others`s.
Oh yes, easy to write but hard to accept all life dramas and I am not so pure, that is who I am in real living.
I do my effort to be thankful man as Earth and Sun`s child.
Thank for letting me live.
Thank for letting all spirits and souls, who were sacrificed in 9/11,2001, who were sacrificed for 9/11,2001, thank for letting all of them,spirits and souls LIVE.
Their spirits and souls live forever.
God bless America!
